me: dude, hope she doesnt get her hopes up on match
me: dude, hope she doesnt get her hopes up on match
Ok, so I admit it, even though eHarmony rejected me Im on a few other online dating sites. Match.com matched me with my housemate, and BNE. I was surfing around okcupid, because Pistons met her BF there. I hit random match. AND BNE CAME UP.
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH
What is worse, is okcupid lets people see who has checked them out. Even worse, my profile pic is the pic of me BNE took. What? its a good pic.
With the added stress of classes being more demanding (and having more whining in them) this semester. And Mouses moving to Mondays. And just freaking stressed out by personal interactions with people. And worried about stepping on toes and pissing people off and the blah blah blah of everything. As well as work becoming more demanding, and the need to meet more people, becasue I’m tired of friends with no time or being the only single person, or just being judged in general. And my medical problems. I am going underground a little while. I will be still posting on my blog. And still updating flickr. And occasionally updating facebook. But in the flesh Im withdrawing. I kinda give up. I need to do well in my career and in grad school and I have never been socially functional in alot of things and its something I want to ignore for now…
If you need me… call or email. Otherwise Ill prolly see in eventually.
When i get restless I change my hair. This weekend, I ended up with a razor cut and 4 colors. It was the most Ive ever spent on my hair. Im still getting used to being able to style it on my own and getting used to blonde being in there along with red.
Sigh. Grad school starts tonight, and with that I might end up pulling out what little is left of my hair.
Im nervous and screeered.
btw. Had date saturday night. did not go well. Will not be dating again for a long time. Apparently I really am undateable.