yet another lonely weekend
After yet another lonely weekend my resolve to try and shrink this year has been renewed. I know some single people, but they prefer to sit at home and play video games or knitt. And the people who like to go out and do things have signifiacant others that absorb a good deal of thier time and usually are not available. I know I could remidy this by going out by myself, but I’ve never beenv ery good at going to bars and chatting up random people. I’ve done it and I usually end up slinking out feeling like a complete jackass after enough people look at me bizarrely for talking to someone I dont know… I swear the “gah! stanger! Why are you talking to me!!” look is worse than sitting at home alone bored.
Ive been realtively good this week, I hope to keep it up. Ive been keeping an eye on what I eat, and I havent been eatting out of shear boredom… much.
I wish I believed I wasn’t undateable, but its kinda true. I am really scared for grad school to end becasue then I will not have a reason for not having a social life.
I have been to single activity groups, most of the time I am absolutely bored by the people who attend.
*head desk*
Ugh. I really should just be happy alone in my room on a saturday night, but the great adventure keeps calling me…
A friend mentioned that she didnt understand why I was so deathly afaird of being average… I dont know, but I always have been.