Bree!

And Im concerned. My tummy has hurt for days. And Im kinda convinced. Gah.

The semester has started and I am going to have to be very very busy this semester … stupid grad school…. why did I think this was a good idea again?

Bree Omg cold. cold Cold. Fuck it Im driving to work tomorrow.

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Bree Ack! its snowing.

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Bree …prolly not getting any better. Woke up late. hair = disaster. tummy still hurts.

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Bree Ugh. srsly? *head desks repeated*.

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Bree just looked at her transcript for the fall and it says “Anal. Skill. A+”….. Analytical should be shortened better.

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Bree cranky.

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Bree is omgdeathfat yet still has a perfectly healthy waist to hip ratio.

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Bree …. the world gave me the finger today, and in respondse I am going to bed. Tuesday, you are on notice…

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Bree … can hear the bells tolling. Today is the first day of the last smeester of grad school… thesis writing time.

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Bree … is wearing a dress.

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Bree is amazed that her 3 years as the study pool coordinator at harvard psych actually came in handy, not for harvard, and not for psych.

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Bree le sighs and irb crap.

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Bree PUDDING!!!

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Bree head desks… and almost give up the will to live.

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Bree Boooooo!

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Bree woke up from a dream singing “I want to be an airborne ranger, I want to live that life of danger, Cross my arm across my chest, tell my mom I did my best.” Weird huh?

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Bree Wheeee! I said Wheeee…..

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Bree Does anyone else find that fact the lead character in “the Hurt Locker” ‘s name is William James abosoultely hilarious in a horrifically nerdy way? or is it just me? Bombs are bears bombs are bears!!!

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Bree ….. Whee. AHEM, dammit I said Wheee.

Ok in the effort to eat better, I am having a salad, with no dressing… Just some ranch sprinkling. I added fallafel and 2 baby bell cheese for protien. Sigh.  Im having a yogurt smoothie for break fast and I pulled out some tuna for dinner. boo.

After yet another lonely weekend my resolve to try and shrink this year has been renewed. I know some single people, but they prefer to sit at home and play video games or knitt. And the people who like to go out and do things have signifiacant others that absorb a good deal of thier time and usually are not available. I know I could remidy this by going out by myself, but I’ve never beenv ery good at going to bars and chatting up random people. I’ve done it and I usually end up slinking out feeling like a complete jackass after enough people look at me bizarrely for talking to someone I dont know… I swear the “gah! stanger! Why are you talking to me!!” look is worse than sitting at home alone bored.

Ive been realtively good this week, I hope to keep it up. Ive been keeping an eye on what I eat, and I havent been eatting out of shear boredom… much.

I wish I believed I wasn’t undateable, but its kinda true. I am really scared for grad school to end becasue then I will not have a reason for not having a social life.

I have been to single activity groups, most of the time I am absolutely bored by the people who attend.

*head desk*

Ugh. I really should just be happy alone in my room on a saturday night, but the great adventure keeps calling me…
A friend mentioned that she didnt understand why I was so deathly afaird of being average… I dont know, but I always have been.

So, my last semester in this MSPA (master of science in Public Affairs) is ramping up. I have an assignment I was going to do but have chosen not to. I dont have anything to do next weekend so i plan on doing it then. I am concerned that my project will not be robust enough for my thesis, I am also concerned about my design. Im also worried I am just not smart enough to do it justice, and that no one will read it anyway…

Well come summer I should? Maybe? have a masters degree, I plan on working at neighbor works for a while longer but I am concerned that I will not be given more responsibilities at my job. The market is so bad right now i think I am going to be greatful for just having a job.

When the student loan check comes in I plan on paying off Ferris. One less bill a month to worry about, I think the rest will be put into savings, just incase I need to move or something. Oy.

I get worried alot lately. I was good for a little while there, but Ryans visit has made me think I am not accomplishing enough. I dont know maybe its just the break talking, but if that is the case, what is going to happen after grad school?

I can feel the gears getting out of thier holiday slumber and whirring to a new dash to the finsih line.

So, like the 2 readers that I had, sorry, I didnt mean to ignore you.

I went home for the holidays. That was good. It was relaxing. It was great spending some time with the family. Jack picked me up at the airport on my way back, and Jon and Ania, borrowed Ferris while I was away so I didnt have to worry about him not starting. Yay.

Since I got back I had a tummy ache, saw a friend off to iraq, and had jury duty. So I guess alot has been going on. Just not anything to entertaining.

I just went down to walgreens and bought a diet coke and some correctol (laxitive) and while checking out the girl asked so how are you doing… looked down and went oh. I turned pink. After I paid she said “have a good one teehee”

I promise to write more…